Friday, October 31, 2008

Thursday, October 30, 2008

How did this help anyone?

This affects my life. My husband works on the missiles here in Montana. This incident ruined my anniversary and July 4th celebrations because every site here had to be inspected.
The moral at Malmstrom in the missile section is already at an all-time low... this will just make it worse.

I hardly see my husband as it is.


Wednesday, October 29, 2008


In the case of intentional poisoning of a Border Patrol Agent in Cut Bank, MT

Tuesday, October 28, 2008


Why have a blog & disable the comments?

Monitor them & toss the ones which annoy you.....

It's an immature Golden Eagle. The break is wrong for an osprey.


Here is my opinion

Monday, October 27, 2008

Why do they ruin everything?

I'm really tired of the media telling me TODAY that Obama is projected to win.... there are still 7 days until the election.

How many people will be swayed by the media hype?

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

*OMG* What was I thinking!??!

So today was one meeting after another followed by working the "Will Clinic" so I was going crazy trying to keep all those thoughts straight. I sat down for lunch and started to reflect on what I needed to tackle first. What out of this insanity was MOST important? Here is what I came up with:
  1. website (begining to end)
  2. logo (maybe before website but either way in the top 3)
  3. catching up paperwork (otherwise the rest is pointless)
Next came panic!

How the hell do I get that done by 1 January?!!!

I'm going to find a paper bag to breathe into for a bit.

P.S. I ended up not being needed today for the Clinic which was good I got to do research from the comfort of my sweats! LOL

I have a plan

Freeze out 225
Originally uploaded by ZhenPanda

I plan to get one view on all 10,000+ photos on my photostream!
This is one of 552 which have 0 views....

I guess I took a lot of uninteresting photos.....

Monday, October 20, 2008

Red, orange, brown, green

Red, orange, brown, green
Originally uploaded by ZhenPanda

Totally uninteresting....

Saturday, October 18, 2008


I received a call from a "friend" from college. I had not spoken with her in a long time. She asked me to complete a form from the state which is doing a home study for her so she can get her two boys back from her parents.

I have many issues with this request.
  • she lied to me about her health in hopes I would take her children so she could do whatever she wanted
  • she sent her children to Georgia to live with another friend when no one here would help
  • she shows open disdain for her oldest boy
  • she has a very different parenting style which I am not sure is best for these two boys.
I don't want to lie on the form. I also don't know that what I say will help or hinder her cause.

I'll be wrestling with my conscience for a bit before I decide to fill it out or send it back.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Oldest photo with 0 views on flickr

slash pile #1
Originally uploaded by ZhenPanda

I have been posting my photographs to since 2005. I currently have over 10,000 photos in my stream.


The oldest one without any views is from August 2006, photo #7253, on page 363.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Such a waste

Many years ago we had a friend of the family who was a fun kid to hang out with. We did a lot and got into a bit of trouble...chased my sister with a snake, left her by Giant Springs because just to be mean and basically did the things kids do when they are 10 years old.

I lost track of him and my sister mentioned him the other day. Turns out at barely 18 years old he attempted to rob an older man and ended up killing him. He is currently serving 150 years for it.

My sister didn't see the sadness of it... not only did this sweet old man die for no reason whatsoever but a kid never got the chance to live his life. She only has anger towards him.

What a wasted life. He simple chose the wrong path.

The hypocrite that I am lit a candle for him.

Monday, October 13, 2008

A conundrum

My camera choices:

Canon PowerShot SX10 IS
  • 10 megapixel
  • 20x optical zoom
  • similar to my current camera
  • $399
  • no real lens options

Nikon D60

  • 10.2 megapixels
  • faster shutter speed
  • many lens options
  • Digital SLR instead of point-n-shoot format
  • similar to my son's so I have a bit of experience
  • $695
  • zoom limited by lens size
  • lens cost $$$$
  • size is too big to carry in my purse
I just have to decide if I want convenience or more options....

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Thank you Airman M!

This weekend ended up being a stay at home one after all... not because of the weather but thanks to Uncle Sam!
The hubby worked Friday until late and then all day Saturday and was scheduled to work Sunday but it was only a half day. I got my nails done on Friday and learned that my nail tech was giving away a couch, love seat, crib, changing table, dresser and bookshelf. Step needed all those items so I gladly offered to take them off his hands.
Saturday evening the hubby was still working so one of his boys volunteered his truck and showed up at the storage unit to help move the stuff. Step got lost and all our other help fell through so Ki, Airman M and I moved it all....actually Airman M did 99% of it without help. He refused my offers of food, drink & money.

I really appreciate what he did so I'm planning to give him a Christmas card with a gift certificate in it.

Why won't Step date someone like him? Damn.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Things to do in Montana when you are stressed...

I like to plan road trips!

Last time the Hubby & I made a quick trip to Lewistown so I could waymark a few things including a Medal of Honor recipient's grave. Now, I'm planning a similar trip to BUTTE, USA!
I have a list of waymarks, a few geocaches and just places I think Son#2 may enjoy.
Here are the highlights:
  1. waymark the MoH graves in Butte & Anaconda
  2. waymark the pit- but I am not sure they have a "Superfund" category...
  3. photograph the Silver Bow county courthouse
  4. visit & way mark as much of Uptown & historic Butte as I can stand
  5. waymark United States High Altitude Sports Center
  6. hunt for at least 12 caches
Anyone have a "must see" for the Butte/Anaconda area?

What a sad statement

What has society come to? Why is it OK for people to abandon children?

The truly sad part is I get calls everyday at work from people wanting to give up their parental rights .... mainly to avoid paying child support.


*end rant*

Hubby shadow

Hubby shadow
Originally uploaded by ZhenPanda

So we bought the Hubby & Son#2 new cameras. I'm thinking it may be time for an upgrade to mine.

I like both but not as much as mine.

Hubby- Panasonic DMC - TZ4
Son#2 - Canon A720
both are small point-n-shoots.

I'm thinking Nikon D90! I only need 4 lenses for it:
1. macro
2. 18-55mm
3. zoom (up to 300mm)
4. fisheye

Monday, October 6, 2008

Better late than never

I submitted a photo..... but you have to pay the $50 to see it!

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Too much fun!

How to make a ZenPanda

5 parts friendliness

5 parts ambition

1 part beauty
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little lovability if desired!

I haven't done one of these in a long time so.....

Here are things you never wanted to know about me. LOL

A-Age: 41
B-Burger favorite: bacon cheese burger ( buffalo meat makes it even better)
C-Car I drive: mercury villager
D-Dog: allergic to them
E-Essential daily item: camera
F-Favorite show: L&O
G-Game: Luxor
H-Home: GF MT
I-Instrument: piano, trumpet, guitar & french horn
J-Juice: pineapple-orange-banana
K-Kick their bum... long list
L-Last Restaurant I was in: Applebees
M-Muppet: Fozzy & Rowlf
N-Number of piercings: just ears
O-Overnight hospital stays: for birth of my kids
P-People with me today: family
Q-Quiet time activities: photography, reading
R-Regret: none
S-Status: Married x7 years
T-Time I got up this morning: late
U-Unique about me: I collect geocoins
V-Veggie favorites: snow peas
W-Worst habit: procrastination
kidney stones
Y-Yummy foods today: have not ate yet
Z-Zodiac: Leo

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Grandcub update

Grandcub Ultrasound
Originally uploaded by ZhenPanda

It was exciting to accompany Step to her ultrasound appointment on Monday. I'm still a little torn about the situation but I can almost see my daughter growing up! She is really trying to recover from the shock of BFD walking out. She truly believed every word he had said.

She has made an effort over the past few weeks to talk to my Hubby, really starting to bond with him. I can see her honestly contemplating how she will be a mom and take care of herself.

Today she tried a position in a daycare and quickly discovered that she has no clue how to deal with children. It really made her think about what it is going to take to be a mom.

At 20 weeks she is quickly facing the parts of pregnancy that her friends never shared with her. I think she has many more learning experiences ahead of her- they are coming fast too!